I am here but I have no words to write.  I only have tears.  Some are joyful, some from anguish.  All desire recognition.  I need the Lord Jesus more than ever, right now.  Satan is on the prowl.  My sister Ashley is gone I am afraid.  Not sure what to do or say, but I keep trusting the Lord to work a miracle.  So..........

How is everyone?  Do I know anyone on here anymore?  I am not sure, but life continues on.

Be Blessed.

It has been a long time, but here I am surrounded by the safe, the familiar.  It's kind of like returning home as a grown adult and remembering the good ol' days.  I am here, but definitely in a different place in my life.  When I created this place, I wanted to write down the struggles of a deliverance from homosexuality so that as I moved further from that moment of deep depression and strife between flesh and spirit that I could remember the pain.  I never want to forget the blessings of the Most High God.

I recently finished my first year of Seminary and tomorrow my wife and I begin moving into our first home.  God is Good all the time!!!  I have no idea how I am going to sleep tonight...I am so wound up (like an eight day clock) but I will manage somehow.

I have always been so thankful for the many years that I wrote so consistently here on xanga.  And the people that I met along the way that offered their encouragement and discourses about my situations.  Even when we didn't agree I was motivated to stay the course.  Now my sister is struggling with homosexuality and drugs and I am searching my words for any thing that will offer comfort to her.  I am not sure what I will do but I know that the Lord will keep His eye on her just as He does the Sparrow.

Currently Reading Religious Affections By Jonathan Edwards see related

Do people still post regularly on here...I know that I don't but I am a very busy seminarian.  Yes, I am.  So the Lord Jesus is just doing so many wonderful things here right now in my life.  I am growing so quickly these days.  My temperment is even changing.  I feel much calmer, not so loud and goofy.  I hardly ever struggle with this old thorn anymore.  What a blessing.  I do have to keep my heart set upon Jesus, the Lord Almighty, but I do that very naturally here as SWBTS.

So would my close friends on here kindly drop me a line and let me know what is going on with you all.  And if you have prayer request that you would like to share, please add those as well and you know that I will lift them to my great Redeemer and Friend.

May the Lord bless you and keep you and make His face to shine upon you,

Beau aka recoveringheterosexual